Sleep well my child. May you find the
peace in your new life you never had in this one.
It is all so clear now. All those conversations I was
missing. All the words anyone has ever wanted to say to me. All the words I
ever wanted to say. I didn’t understand before. Why couldn’t I make sense of
this before? There is hope in the world now.
Before, I don’t even know how to describe before. It was
like the world was rushing at me a million miles an hour and I was stuck in the
slow lane. Every flash of light, every sound, every color, every taste, it was
like I was covered over by stinging wasps constantly buzzing and stinging every
sensory perception and I couldn’t get away.
I couldn’t get anything out through the cloud surrounding
me at all times. I was bound by my own limitations, but not anymore. There is
nothing binding me any longer. I’m free. Free to find my voice. Free to feel without
fearing what I am feeling.
I can hear your voice now. It is coming through loud and
clear. It is no longer just loud, pounding at every sense as if it was a wave
overpowering me, oppressing me, keeping me from myself. I know who I am now. I know
who you are now. This is what it means t think. To feel to understand.
This is what it means to see color. I can
see color now. It’s not just sound flooding my senses and scratching at the
inside of my eyes. There is a rainbow of color to explore. I know what blue is
now. I know what red and yellow and green and black and orange and purple
means. It’s real for me now. I can see it with my eyes and with my heart and
with my soul, too.
It’s not too much for me anymore. I know what the world
means. I understand. I might even understand even better than you.
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